Long time away...

Long time no see! I revamped my blog a little yesterday - Blogger has changed quite a bit in the last couple years - Many more options and I like designing and decorating so I had a fun time playing around and customizing my page.... I'm still working on my TWITTER gadget as it's not working for some reason. The feed isn't showing up... but you all can follow me @BMABritt.... I post pics and comments there throughout the day. I am NOT on Facebook now as there are a few fake Facebook pages of me - One page actually steals my pics from my Twitter and posts them on the page pretending to be me, lol.... So as much as it looks to be me...it's not. They do question and answer stuff too pretending to be me...kind of creepy! But anyways... I may get a new one started and if I do I will let you all know :) It honestly doesn't seem like it's been 1.5 years since I posted here... Sorry! Thank you to my loyal fans who have continued to check my blog daily for updates... Only to find... Well.....nothing new. I hope this post can earn me a few points back with my fans... LIFE.... IT'S CRAZY BUSY & WONDERFUL ...All @ the same time. I stay going every hour of every day. I'm working to trying to get a little relaxation time into my schedule. My work schedule is absolutely crazy and not something that I have been use to since I've been a nurse. I 've always worked shift-work. A little over a year ago I thought I would try a "normal" schedule and start working weekdays 8-5... Oh my, what was I thinking? It's the absolute worst decision I have ever made in my life... I know hate is a strong word... but I HATE it... ha-ha. No kidding, it's brutal and I've said it a million times, I give props to those who do it and still find time to have a balanced life. I do have a new job (yay!) with a schedule of my liking but I am in the waiting process right now. I have to wait to get someone hired for my position and then I have to train them... Then I can start my new job. So it's far sighted right now but I'm trying to stay positive and do what I can to make it.... Which brings me to this... I had planned to compete @ the JR USAs in Charleston, SC in a couple weeks, but with everything going on ...I just sold my house, moved and now trying to find another house... I'm pretty much burnt out and exhausted. I began dieting in December 2011 for this show but was swayed into the decision of competing at NC States as a "warm-up" to the JR USAs... Sometimes I listen to others rather than going with what I know is best. I did the NC States Physique and won my class and overall!! I know you are thinking ...what's so bad about that!!?? Ha-ha, well it wasn't the master plan and I guess you can say I'm quite task oriented, especially these days... to be honest, it threw me off my kilter a little and kind of screwed me up physically and mentally. I had to stop weight training because my muscles were still TOO BIG, even @ 125lbs... I was hardly eating any protein and I was doing a whole lot of cardio. This prep was the hardest prep I have ever had to endure... Losing muscle and down sizing is a task, a big task... Yes, I CAN do it... but it takes time and sanity.... and I was losing a little sanity. I am going to compete again but I'm going to take a little breather for a few months, get things settled and hopefully in a new home.... Gotta get that PRO CARD... It's the dream I've had since I was 14 when I first began competing. I competed @ 113 pounds......

I'm headed to the gym now to train back and shoulders... I'm trying some different training strategies and I will start sharing those with you soon... Also, I am planning to do a photo shoot soon to get my site updated... I know, It's been a while too... I want it updated just as much as you all do! Alright, you all have a great night and I will see you soon! B

Well Hello there....

I just wanted to say Hi ;)




All my love,
B

LOVE TO ALL!

There comes a time

I have been staring at this blank blog screen for a few weeks now.  I'll sign in to make a post and end up signing out after endless minutes of a blank mind for typing.  I wish I could just connect my thoughts directly to the computer screen; it would be much easier that way.  I will do my best to give you an honest and whole hearted update of my journey through life as we speak.

I will start by telling you that all I want is to be happy, just as anyone does.  I know this is what my family, friends, and fans want for me as well and I really appreciate that.  At this time in my life I am the happiest I have EVER been.  With that said, I have to admit that I have not been completely happy with my life for the past couple years.  Bodybuilding has been my love, my life, and honestly my sanctuary for the past 11 years when I first competed at the age of 14.  I dedicated my entire adolescence through my current age of 25 to eating, breathing, sleeping, and living bodybuilding.  The drive and determination that I held was relentless and could scare almost any demon away, or for that matter attract them.  I feel like I was so consumed by this force that it made me oblivious to the reality of life.  I had a dream that began when I was only 14 years old and that dream was to turn professional in women's bodybuilding.  As time passed, each year competing and placing no less than 3rd, I was becoming closer and closer to achieving my dream.  Receiving sponsorships and working with amazing photographers for articles and layouts in the most popular bodybuilding and fitness magazines was a dream come true.  The odd thing is when it actually became my time in 2008, having my professional card in clear sight, the passion and desire to ruin my body had finally began to wither away.  Bodybuilding is a sport that caters to persons many different wants and needs.  Entering the sport I gained confidence I never imagined having.  This confidence turned to envy which then turned into a habit, and continued to run it's course, becoming an addiction; which some believe to be a healthy addiction.  For me it was not.  I was totally consumed by things that I could no longer control.  I HAD to train, I HAD to eat, I HAD to do what I HAD to do when I HAD to do it.  It didn't matter what anyone else wanted or needed, nothing was going to stop me or get in my way of what I felt I needed to do.  My ways made me the most independent person I know, but also the most selfish and inconsiderate.  Even in the midst of all this it was worth it to me because I wanted to be a professional bodybuilder and I was in love with the sport.  There is no doubt in my mind that I was in love with bodybuilding; dieting, competing, training, and everything that comes with being an admirable athlete.  I was star struck to know that I was rising to the level of the ones I had always admired.  It's the most flattering feeling to know that you have "fans" and people all around the world know who you are and even look up to you.  That I have to say is the most fulfilling part of bodybuilding; knowing that you can impact other peoples lives and give people the drive to follow their dreams.  I don't always have the chance to answer every email that I receive but I most definitely try to read them all, and I thank each and every person that has taken the time to impact my life with something as small and thoughtful as an email.  I try to always give you my positive thoughts and advice when presented with the opportunity.

I feel like I am rambling here.  I will tell you personally that I will always have a passion for bodybuilding, it served as my first love, but now I am at a crossroads in life where I feel I need to venture down a road that has been less taken the majority of my life.  I want to live live freely, love freely, and have the actual sense of freedom.  I want to be known as just me for once.  There are so many things in life that I want to do but have always been restricted due to bodybuilding.  I admit that these restrictions were self-made but I wanted to be the best and I was willing to do anything to get there.  To elaborate, I restricted myself from serious relationships, family, friends, and just life in general.  I felt that I had to have that sense of independence and control to be my absolute best.  Now I can see how silly this all appears.  Things that seem so important one day can seem completely irrelevant the next.  I think this all ties in with me growing older and realizing what really matters in life, understanding that my friends and family and strong relationships create happiness for me.  For the last 2 years I have been struggling to let bodybuilding go; feeling scared and afraid of being lost without my sense of achievement.  I am so happy to say that I have finally come to ends with those thoughts.  I can not say that I will "never" compete again but I can say that I am the happiest I have ever been just living life day to day, knowing that I have made a positive difference in women's bodybuilding and others lives.

Thank you so much for listening!

I love you all and hope you will continue to follow my life as I will always portray and promote a healthy physical lifestyle.

All my love,

B

I love Canada!

My

©  Jennifer D. Brock

What you mean to me,

Is more than I can express.

You see, I had no sister when I was little

To call when I was in distress.

When we first met,

We had no clue,

What was getting ready to happen,

Was not completely out of the blue.

God had a plan,

Throughout all the years,

He was making us for each other,

To share life's smiles and tears.

I never could have imagined,

What a sister's love was about,

Until I met you,

And then I really found out.

A sister's love is unconditional,

It's a love that has no end,

A sister's love wants the best for each other,

It's a love that will always defend.

Sometimes we may get mad,

Or we may begin to fight,

But that's the fun part about having a sister,

We both think we're always right!

I'm so glad that I did not have,

A sister in the past,

It's made me much more thankful,

For the sister I have at last.

Weekend Time!!

Again, why is this underlined? Anyways. . .

How is everyone?

I'm good!  Ok, that's a flat out lie, I'm so stressed!  I have so much going on, and so much that I have to get done, but just not enough time in the day!  Or the week, even.  When I was in college, I looked forward to the weekends because all I had to do was study and go to clinical at the hospital.  When I first became a Nurse, I looked forward to the weekdays because I worked the weekends. Now, my schedule is all over the place and I look forward to 2359 becoming 0000!! . . . it's the only way I can decipher one day from the next.

I've been helping a friend with preparation for a local figure show for the past several weeks.  The show is tomorrow.  I met up with her today and she is looking great!  There's no doubt in my mind that she's going to outshine everyone on the stage.  I'm so excited for her.  It's her 1st time ever on stage and she's totally infatuated and saturated by every aspect of it.

Training is going(now the underlining disappears?) good. I haven't become too excited yet, about it all.  When things get a little less hectic and I am able to slow down a bit and think straight, I'm sure the butterflies will begin fluttering around.

Not much longer and I'll be spending time with my BFF, Cin!!  I'm going to visit her really soon and I can't wait!

My grass is amazing!!! (fingers crossed the scorching sun doesn't kill it) I have been taking such good care of it!  I mowed the back last week, and man was that a 5 hour chore!  The grass was up to my face! It was horrible!  Thank goodness my brother is amazing and loves me dearly! :)  I did the weed eating, which was like fighting your way through a jungle.  I was looking for Tarzan but never saw him.  Then today I mowed the front and wow! it looks great!  It's green!  I have to say I did an outstanding job. . . oh yeah, I even mowed in diagonal lines :)  and the weed-eating was nothing less than spectacular. . . All by my sweet little self :)  Only thing gone wrong is my basketball goal is now broke in half, and tomorrow will be on its way to the dump.  oops :)  I played on that thing almost every night!  Deezy is an amazing defensive guard!

I'm off to bed.  I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!  

Do something fun!  

xoxo

b

17-9

17-9, and we WIN!!

Hi Guys!!

It's me, checking in.  Just in from our softball game, which was a blast!  Above is a picture of my sister, Shannon, and I after the game.  I absolutely LOVE being back on a team.  Bodybuilding is an individual sport, which I also love, but I really miss team sports.  We have a great team with great players and great attitudes.  You can't ask for anything better!  Our season lasts until May, I believe, then following there is a league team and co-ed team that I will play for.  Also, I will be coaching kids basketball!  That is so exciting for me!  I love kids, and basketball is my long lost love, so it couldn't be any better!  I am watering my yard tonight.  It hasn't been raining much lately.  It's been in the 90's everyday for the last week.  I went to the lake a couple times and laid out in the sun a few times too.  The warm weather makes you want to get out of the house and just do things, anything!  I watched Bedtime Stories last night.  Unlike Marley and Me, it was a fantastic movie!  Alright guys, it's time to run out and move the sprinklers!  Lets hope I don't spray myself in the face like I did the other night!! lol

Goodnight

xoxo

b

...here is a funny picture of me playing the air guitar and Shannon, well, I'm not exactly sure what she was doing??!! lol