There comes a time

I have been staring at this blank blog screen for a few weeks now.  I'll sign in to make a post and end up signing out after endless minutes of a blank mind for typing.  I wish I could just connect my thoughts directly to the computer screen; it would be much easier that way.  I will do my best to give you an honest and whole hearted update of my journey through life as we speak.

I will start by telling you that all I want is to be happy, just as anyone does.  I know this is what my family, friends, and fans want for me as well and I really appreciate that.  At this time in my life I am the happiest I have EVER been.  With that said, I have to admit that I have not been completely happy with my life for the past couple years.  Bodybuilding has been my love, my life, and honestly my sanctuary for the past 11 years when I first competed at the age of 14.  I dedicated my entire adolescence through my current age of 25 to eating, breathing, sleeping, and living bodybuilding.  The drive and determination that I held was relentless and could scare almost any demon away, or for that matter attract them.  I feel like I was so consumed by this force that it made me oblivious to the reality of life.  I had a dream that began when I was only 14 years old and that dream was to turn professional in women's bodybuilding.  As time passed, each year competing and placing no less than 3rd, I was becoming closer and closer to achieving my dream.  Receiving sponsorships and working with amazing photographers for articles and layouts in the most popular bodybuilding and fitness magazines was a dream come true.  The odd thing is when it actually became my time in 2008, having my professional card in clear sight, the passion and desire to ruin my body had finally began to wither away.  Bodybuilding is a sport that caters to persons many different wants and needs.  Entering the sport I gained confidence I never imagined having.  This confidence turned to envy which then turned into a habit, and continued to run it's course, becoming an addiction; which some believe to be a healthy addiction.  For me it was not.  I was totally consumed by things that I could no longer control.  I HAD to train, I HAD to eat, I HAD to do what I HAD to do when I HAD to do it.  It didn't matter what anyone else wanted or needed, nothing was going to stop me or get in my way of what I felt I needed to do.  My ways made me the most independent person I know, but also the most selfish and inconsiderate.  Even in the midst of all this it was worth it to me because I wanted to be a professional bodybuilder and I was in love with the sport.  There is no doubt in my mind that I was in love with bodybuilding; dieting, competing, training, and everything that comes with being an admirable athlete.  I was star struck to know that I was rising to the level of the ones I had always admired.  It's the most flattering feeling to know that you have "fans" and people all around the world know who you are and even look up to you.  That I have to say is the most fulfilling part of bodybuilding; knowing that you can impact other peoples lives and give people the drive to follow their dreams.  I don't always have the chance to answer every email that I receive but I most definitely try to read them all, and I thank each and every person that has taken the time to impact my life with something as small and thoughtful as an email.  I try to always give you my positive thoughts and advice when presented with the opportunity.

I feel like I am rambling here.  I will tell you personally that I will always have a passion for bodybuilding, it served as my first love, but now I am at a crossroads in life where I feel I need to venture down a road that has been less taken the majority of my life.  I want to live live freely, love freely, and have the actual sense of freedom.  I want to be known as just me for once.  There are so many things in life that I want to do but have always been restricted due to bodybuilding.  I admit that these restrictions were self-made but I wanted to be the best and I was willing to do anything to get there.  To elaborate, I restricted myself from serious relationships, family, friends, and just life in general.  I felt that I had to have that sense of independence and control to be my absolute best.  Now I can see how silly this all appears.  Things that seem so important one day can seem completely irrelevant the next.  I think this all ties in with me growing older and realizing what really matters in life, understanding that my friends and family and strong relationships create happiness for me.  For the last 2 years I have been struggling to let bodybuilding go; feeling scared and afraid of being lost without my sense of achievement.  I am so happy to say that I have finally come to ends with those thoughts.  I can not say that I will "never" compete again but I can say that I am the happiest I have ever been just living life day to day, knowing that I have made a positive difference in women's bodybuilding and others lives.

Thank you so much for listening!

I love you all and hope you will continue to follow my life as I will always portray and promote a healthy physical lifestyle.

All my love,

B

I love Canada!

My

©  Jennifer D. Brock

What you mean to me,

Is more than I can express.

You see, I had no sister when I was little

To call when I was in distress.

When we first met,

We had no clue,

What was getting ready to happen,

Was not completely out of the blue.

God had a plan,

Throughout all the years,

He was making us for each other,

To share life's smiles and tears.

I never could have imagined,

What a sister's love was about,

Until I met you,

And then I really found out.

A sister's love is unconditional,

It's a love that has no end,

A sister's love wants the best for each other,

It's a love that will always defend.

Sometimes we may get mad,

Or we may begin to fight,

But that's the fun part about having a sister,

We both think we're always right!

I'm so glad that I did not have,

A sister in the past,

It's made me much more thankful,

For the sister I have at last.

Weekend Time!!

Again, why is this underlined? Anyways. . .

How is everyone?

I'm good!  Ok, that's a flat out lie, I'm so stressed!  I have so much going on, and so much that I have to get done, but just not enough time in the day!  Or the week, even.  When I was in college, I looked forward to the weekends because all I had to do was study and go to clinical at the hospital.  When I first became a Nurse, I looked forward to the weekdays because I worked the weekends. Now, my schedule is all over the place and I look forward to 2359 becoming 0000!! . . . it's the only way I can decipher one day from the next.

I've been helping a friend with preparation for a local figure show for the past several weeks.  The show is tomorrow.  I met up with her today and she is looking great!  There's no doubt in my mind that she's going to outshine everyone on the stage.  I'm so excited for her.  It's her 1st time ever on stage and she's totally infatuated and saturated by every aspect of it.

Training is going(now the underlining disappears?) good. I haven't become too excited yet, about it all.  When things get a little less hectic and I am able to slow down a bit and think straight, I'm sure the butterflies will begin fluttering around.

Not much longer and I'll be spending time with my BFF, Cin!!  I'm going to visit her really soon and I can't wait!

My grass is amazing!!! (fingers crossed the scorching sun doesn't kill it) I have been taking such good care of it!  I mowed the back last week, and man was that a 5 hour chore!  The grass was up to my face! It was horrible!  Thank goodness my brother is amazing and loves me dearly! :)  I did the weed eating, which was like fighting your way through a jungle.  I was looking for Tarzan but never saw him.  Then today I mowed the front and wow! it looks great!  It's green!  I have to say I did an outstanding job. . . oh yeah, I even mowed in diagonal lines :)  and the weed-eating was nothing less than spectacular. . . All by my sweet little self :)  Only thing gone wrong is my basketball goal is now broke in half, and tomorrow will be on its way to the dump.  oops :)  I played on that thing almost every night!  Deezy is an amazing defensive guard!

I'm off to bed.  I hope you all have a wonderful weekend!  

Do something fun!  

xoxo

b

17-9

17-9, and we WIN!!

Hi Guys!!

It's me, checking in.  Just in from our softball game, which was a blast!  Above is a picture of my sister, Shannon, and I after the game.  I absolutely LOVE being back on a team.  Bodybuilding is an individual sport, which I also love, but I really miss team sports.  We have a great team with great players and great attitudes.  You can't ask for anything better!  Our season lasts until May, I believe, then following there is a league team and co-ed team that I will play for.  Also, I will be coaching kids basketball!  That is so exciting for me!  I love kids, and basketball is my long lost love, so it couldn't be any better!  I am watering my yard tonight.  It hasn't been raining much lately.  It's been in the 90's everyday for the last week.  I went to the lake a couple times and laid out in the sun a few times too.  The warm weather makes you want to get out of the house and just do things, anything!  I watched Bedtime Stories last night.  Unlike Marley and Me, it was a fantastic movie!  Alright guys, it's time to run out and move the sprinklers!  Lets hope I don't spray myself in the face like I did the other night!! lol

Goodnight

xoxo

b

...here is a funny picture of me playing the air guitar and Shannon, well, I'm not exactly sure what she was doing??!! lol

Happy Weekend...

Stopping in to wish you guys a happy weekend!  I'm heading out to pick up a few things for the house now.  Tomorrow is the NC State Bodybuilding Show.  I have a few friends competing and I will present a few trophies tomorrow night.  I guess I will head up there for prejudging in the morning as well.  I really enjoy prejudging and don't care much for the night shows.  I remember the exact moment of being on that stage in 2004.  That was so overwhelming, but fulfilling!!

Have a great weekend!

Talk soon!

B

xoxo

!!HAPPY EASTER!!

HAPPY EASTER

Hey-lo!!

I have NO IDEA why this stupid thing is underlining everything I type.  It's kind of funny but at the same time it's making me mad, lol.  I just want to type normal, dang it.  I went to church this morning.  Easter Sunday is always a cute little play, but today I was quite disappointed.  Basically, it was a reenactment of the last supper which led to us receiving communion.  That's it!!  Then the preacher had the sermon.  Our Christmas play is always amazing!  It's called "The Singing Christmas Tree."  I absolutely LOVE the singing/music at my church.  We have a huge choir, a band, drums, guitars, and much more; not to mention great soloist!  If they allowed Guitar Hero players in the band I'd be first in line, but sorry to say they don't.  AND I'm a great singer too, but wouldn't want to out-perform all the great talent we already have  :) ...sike!  My land has finally been tilled and seeded.  I spent hours the other night running in and out of the house, moving the sprinklers around to make sure it all had water ...It rained the next day - harder than it's rained in years!  See what I get for trying?!  It's really nice here today, weather in the 70's.  I have softball practice at 7:30 tonight.  We have a pretty awesome team; got some talent, baby!  As we said in high school, "Yeaaaaaaaaa Baaaaaby!"  It was pretty funny last week at our first practice, I haven't really played in about 2 years.  My batting was out of this world!  But, whew, my fielding ....uggghuuumm, did I say how great my batting was? lol.  I played some ball last night with my nephew.  He's 7 years old.  He's starting to get really good at baseball, but insist on playing soccer.  He was practicing pitching to me and I'm thinking dang, he's getting good, and then he says to me, "Britt, I don't really like baseball." lol.  Anyways, things have been really great around here lately.  Contest prep is  coming along as planned.  My life seems to be pretty enjoyable.  I think I've laughed more in the last month than I did all last year!  Also, my tree has survived!  That makes me happy!  I feel like such a good Mom!  But, I must tell you, never ever, never ever ever, put a boiled Easter egg in your pocket!  Especially one that you want to keep!  Yes, I would have failed Home-Ec class.  I watched the movie Marley and Me the other day.  What a horrible movie!!  I bought it!  I'm taking it back!  The dog dies in the end!!  I couldn't handle it... just couldn't handle it.  I was on the floor holding Deezy, sobbing, for about 30 minutes after the movie ended!!  Don't watch it!  And sorry for ruining the movie for you if you haven't seen it but just believe me, you wouldn't have wanted to see it anyways! lol.   Alright guys, I need to get a move on.  I hope you all have a wonderful Easter and I will be in touch soon!  And make sure you dye easter eggs!  Don't be a scrooge!  

Love Always,

B

Candid per request

So here's as candid as it gets guys. I've had quite a few request for candid pics around contest shape. These are a few days after 2007 Nationals (obviously after I stuffed myself silly, i.e. the protruding abs). Veins, bulging muscles, fading ProTan, it's all here. Hope you enjoy. I was shooting video and pictures simultaneously with FemFlex, but I have not the slightest clue what I was doing/thinking in these candid shots...

Training is coming along great!! What's all this controversy about the Tampa Pro?? Are they having it? or no? ...I'm confused but I wish [they] would make [their] minds up! I know you guys have always wanted to see Cin and I on-stage together, and we are trying to make that happen this year. TRYING!! :o) So we'll see! Stay tuned for that ;)

Have a great weekend!! I can't wait for Saturday...(Cheat meal night :) !!!! Mmmmm, steak!!

XOXO
B

Fergie and Jesus

My favorite movie of all times is Step Brothers. I watch it over and over while doing cardio. I can probably reiterate every vulgar line. What a skill, huh? I wont be so rude to quote my favorite repulsive lines. I was so tired this morning due to redline depletion (stimulants are key! lol.) I have never laughed so hard when I was so tired.

On another note, I don't understand why people get in the state of mind that they are doomed for life. It makes sense to me if you are not happy with your current state, to think, plan, and take action. Apparently I think different than some. I recently encountered a situation that I just couldn't grasp the reality of. Why, day after day, would you step into a place that is supposed to be your glory, with a piss-ass attitude. I am referring to a bodybuilder entering his place of sanity, the gym. When asked, they say, "Because if I leave, that's giving up, quitting." My response to that is bullshit. If a human has a passion, a burning fire deep within, he will find a way. WHERE THERE'S A WILL, THERE'S A WAY. If the gym is your worst enemy, why would you call yourself a bodybuilder? Are you trying to make your life a living hell? I'm not being completely heartless, I understand that we all have our days, weeks, and maybe even months. But if there's no effort to change the situation, well, all I can say is you reap what you sew. "I don't know that I can do it anymore." Then you CAN'T! Point blank. Get off your ass, stop pitying yourself, and step up to the plate. Get rid of the sorry ass attitude. Sorry ass people have sorry ass attitudes. Have some faith, believe in yourself, stop complaining. If there's a problem fix it and move on, conquer. On the other hand, if you're miserable and you don't believe in yourself, find another hobby. Because all bodybuilding is to you is a hobby. A passion is something that gives you chills, puts you in a state of euphoria where you're invincible to the world. No one or no thing can stop you from conquering. Back to the statement made of "because that's quitting." Stepping up to the front doors of the gym, seeing your reflection in the glass doors with the mentality of having an unsuccessful workout, and STILL walking in ....that's quitting. I'm smart enough to know if you start your workout with that mentality, you will end your workout soon as a failure. Turn around, go home, and don't come back until you're ready to do some damage. There's a difference between this situation and the situation of one that is tired and run down, dreading working out, but still coming into the gym with the attitude of success. You have it or you don't. There's no in-between. There WILL be stones in the road, and you WILL have bad days, but if you don't have the WILL to succeed then face it, bodybuilding is NOT for you. Move on.

Now, sorry for that but now you know a pet peeve of mine. I hope that one I encountered will read this. This is me being real. I'm not trying to hurt anyone or put anyone down but there comes a point when you need to make eye contact with youself in the mirror and stop feeling sorry for yourself.

I think I need to go now. LOL. I hope that you all have a great day and I will be in touch soon.

Love,
B

Short-term memory loss

Apparently I'm having a bout of short-term memory loss. I was driving home from getting my nails done and thought of something I wanted to say to you guys. Sorry. I have a bad memory anyways. I have no idea how I did so well in college. Maybe because I had no life and spent the life I did have in the library like a total nerd. So, I'm going to ramble a little here...

Training is SICK. Not in crazy weight terms but in this insane motivation kind-of-way that I have right now. When you train by yourself for sometime you get in the so called veiled groove. I started training with a friend about a month ago, helping her with her diet, as she helps me with motivation. Man, I wasn't realizing how plain, simple, and routine I was training. It makes me a little nauseous even thinking how many workouts I wasted. Since I have been dieting, it's like I have this indomitable will to conquer. It's crazy and I love it. On her page, she's lost about 12 pounds and is on the way to a hot bikini body!

I know you guys like to see "numbers," and you also know that I don't talk about them too much. Nothing crazy as I have posted before, but here's some numbers from my forth-set weight on back and legs. I strive for 10-12 reps, and no matter what I HAVE to get 8. Get 8 or don't do the weight :)

Dead-lifts (half-reps) - 315
Stiff-leg deads from the floor - 225
Squats (hams touching calves) - 275
Dumbell rows (single arm) - 100

Hope you enjoy reading that. I don't bank on weight, but more so accurate form and muscle performance. Although, I will say it feels good as hell to throw around some stout weight.

Plant Update (previous post): I don't like to throw out the F-bomb often, but f***! ....f***! ....f***! I'd post a picture of the "thing" but I'm too embarrassed. It's pretty sad that I can't keep the stupid thing alive. I mean, come on, how hard is it? My other plants are pretty and green! I'm not prejudice, I treat them all the same! I haven't taken it back to Lowe's just yet but I'm going to. And I don't want another one either!

OK, well, I have to get packing. I'm going to New York for a few days. You guys be good and the picture I posted was from Los Angeles, a few days after 2007 Nationals; Physique Art Photography, Mike Yurkovic.

18.5 weeks

Love you,
B

I want to be there

I didn't even know this was on the net. I came across it on YouTube and I've watched it about 50x. I've thought of the good and the bad and can not wait to be back on stage - I have to make a difference. 19.5 weeks. I wanted to share it with you and I hope you enjoy! 2007 Nationals, 2nd Place.



XOXO
B

Fun, exhausting, ARNOLD weekend

Hi!

I left out Thursday for the AC and as much fun as it was I am so glad to be home ...Well, kind of. I went with SPECIES to help out with the booth. This year was the 1st that I have actually worked at the AC as I usually just go for fun. And damn, those 3 days will tire you out quicker than pre-exhaustion workouts! I am trying to get caught up and back on track today, although I did cancel my 6am workout this morning :) I ate so much while I was there. I had an overload of protein bars and shakes! I bought the cutest workout clothes at the Expo! BiaBrazil and Equilibrium are my FAVORITE now :) I finally got to hang out with Colette and Dave this weekend. After all the emails during contest season, I finally meet the guys behind the computer taking my food away and telling me to do 10 more minutes of cardio!!! These 2 are great people and so fun to be around! I laughed all weekend. Especially when Romano and Dave were together. It was a blast. I also got to meet and hang out with HHH the wrestler. He is funny as well and pretty down to earth. When it was time for him to sign autographs, we just put our pics up and got out of the way... His fans were crazy. Why would you want Britt Miller's autograph when you can get HHH's!!!??? I met so many fans that I have got to know over the past years. Thank you guys for your support! I wouldn't be here without you! I was able to finally put faces with names that are part of the SPECIES team. Here is who was at the booth most the weekend ..Me, Colette, Dave(well, sometimes), Joel Goldburg, Kat Ramirez, Jen Cowan, PJ Braun, Guy Cisternino, Sean Andros, HHH, Arina Manta, the RX Radio crew, John Romano, Mavi Gioia, Roseanne Desmarais, Catherine Holland, Julieann Kulla, Melissa Dettwiller, Isabelle Turell, and Dena Westerfield. There are tons of pics from the entire weekend on www.rxmuscle.com. The trip home was a little sad and very tiring. My stomach was in knots the entire way home. I had a lot on my mind and needed some good sleep. It was about a 7 hour trip home with my layover in Detroit. I saw Yaxini in Detroit. She was sitting, eating a huge bag of Cheetos. I just had to laugh because I know that state of mind after a show. She placed 3rd and looked great as always. Debi Laszewski was amazing in 2nd, and Iris looked better than ever in 1st!!! Her new hair style does wonders! I went to the night show with My friend KD. We had 4th row seats!!! Thanks to Jay Cutler! Man, I was sitting there watching the women's routines and my eyes started to tear up. I'm telling you, this sport has a special place in my heart!! ...FO REALZ, lol :) I wanna be on that stage!

It's 80 degrees here in North Carolina today!!!! I had the air on last night and today I have the windows open. It's soooo nice. I've been unpacking and cleaning up around here today. I should really be outside doing "something" to this grassless-red-mud-yard of mine! Damn! I decided "I" am not messing with it this year. My brother and I did the entire 9 yard buku of events on it last year and yielded exactly what I said a second ago ...A MUDDY HELL HOLE! Guess I should call the yard guy to come out sometime this week. We may have some more bad weather soon so maybe I should wait. Ya, I'll wait considering it snowed 6 inches last week :) My luck, hell will freeze over as soon as I do it. I love plants! I'm not a huge flower girl, but the rich green color of plants makes me happy. They are all over my house. I am not exactly the best plant-mom. They die a lot but I am getting better! I have this cool tree in my living room that I got from Lowe's. The trunk is braided. I can't remember what it's called but I came home from the Arnold last night and the darn thing had leaves lying everywhere on the floor! It was expensive so if it dies then I'm taking it back!! It has a year warranty. My brother had this palm tree he got from Lowe's that had a BAD life. It was always depleted and sickly looking no matter what you did to it. It had been about a year since he bought it so he drug the pitiful thing back and they gave him a new one. I was like why didn't you do that 364 days ago??, it looked like he pulled it out the trash! I laughed so hard every time I saw that ugly thing. I also left my used shaker cup (AKA shakacup for those of Species, lol) in the sink while I was gone and it was the worst smell in the world when I opened it!!!

Anyways, today is DAY.1 of my way to the USA's! HELL YA! I'm excited about my prep and training this year. It's gonna be amazing. I can already feel it. Of course we all have bumps in the road but I'll worry about those when I get to them. I trained arms today and the intensity was refreshing. I'm a little bit too excited about this year ...I'm already so anxious about everything! Or maybe I just drank too much of that extreme Redline! Yea yea, I know they're not good for ya but I drink them religiously ...I'm not perfect :)

By the way, I can finally get my hair in a cute little ponytail!! I've been waiting forever for this!! I tried a few weeks ago but it wasn't quite long enough... looked so ghetto... but now, it's hot! :) I'm also trying to stay away from acrylic nails!! They have ruined my real nails for years now! But I still insisted on getting them! So I'm trying to grow mine to look nice and pretty. I'm having fun with bright colored nail polish too. I bought some neon pink, black, and of all colors, yellow, today. i grilled out today too. Food is weighed, put in containers, and ready to eat for about a week. I hate cooking every day when I'm dieting. I usually prepare a weeks worth at a time.

Alrighty, I gots to go pick up Deezy from my Dad's. He kept her while I was gone. I think I'll take her by the park on the way home. Here she is in the snow last week. Isn't she cute?? I love 'er to death :)


I love you guys and I'm going to keep you updated more often than in the past. Trying for 2-3x a week - So we'll see :)

b :)

2009 is the year

Happy late Valentine's Day!
I had a wonderful Valentine's Day! ...Spent with the most amazing person in my life, my Mom. Your Mother should always be your #1 Valentine and love of your life!! I know mine is. She is more than I could ever ask for.

I'm a very discrete kind of person and usually keep to myself quite a bit but I want to share with you that I AM competing this year and I AM competing at the 2009 USA's held in Las Vegas on July 25th. I have been, still am, and will continue to prepare myself mentally and physically for this journey. My heart and determination have taken me wherever I have wanted to go in life thus far and will continue to do so. There are things that need to be accomplished and the time is now. With a free spirit and mind, and a clear road ahead, I'm prepared to succeed. I want my fans to see the Britt that they have been waiting for, so wait no longer, she's on her way :o) 22 weeks to go......

I want to tell everyone about a friend of mine that is going through a hard time. 99% of FBB's know of him through his generousity and long-time support to female bodybuilding. His name is Jason. He and his family are battling some things that he has asked for our prayers. So if you would, please keep he and his famly in your prayers. It would be very much appreciated!

Alrighty, it's waaayyyy past my bedtime! I've been hitting the hay around 9 or 10pm every night and training at 6am! Tomorrow's training isn't until later but I'm sooo tired so I'm off :o)

HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!
All my love,
b

STEELERS!!!

Everyone wave your terrible towels!!! Never doubt the best :o) I''ll have some SB pics up for you soon but now, I have for you a pic from New Years and one from boarding Saturday!!

XOXO

B :)

Me here

Hi Guys,

It's late and I'm just sitting here at my computer thinking about so much. Do you ever find yourself thinking and daydreaming only to realize 30 minutes has past? I do it often and the idea of writing during that time is appealing to me. Tonight I wrote as I thought. Still thinking, I decided to stop and turn to page one. As my eyes gazed from line to line I realized how cool it is for one to be able to express themself, and maybe in a way that they wouldn't normally. You can really get to know yourself. Do you know really know yourself? There is more to me than I sometimes let myself see.

I have been cleaning up my diet and such for the first weekend of March; the Arnold Classic. I will be appearing at the SPECIES booth signing pictures and posters. I am very proud to say that I am sponsored by SPECIES Nutrition. It's flattering to know that someone wants you to represent their company. I believe in SPECIES products and have used them for over a year now. I will proudly sit my apple bottom at their booth at the Arnold Classic! I recently have had my two magazine write-ups from 2008 framed. I can just stand and look at them for hours. The feeling that I get, the feeling of accomplishment, embraces me and makes me feel so good. Since I was 12 years old, when I started training with weights, my dream has been to take weight training as far as the man above would allow me. So it really hits me hard when I think about Bodybuilding and possibly my future in Bodybuilding. The way that Bodybuilding takes my breath away, so do other things in life. Having a family and coming home to a house full of love and pure happiness is one of those other things for me. Bodybuilding takes great dedication and determination as does a family. I believe that those who live truly happy lives, have balance. When it's my turn to experience this, I want balance. I think about this often and sometimes think that I can't have both. I feel like I have to be all or nothing. Three things I want are balance, trust, and love. I believe those three things equal happiness. The reason this is on my mind tonight is because I watched The Bachelor earlier. Wow, are some of those girls sane? I have to admit, Jason is a keeper! Anyway, it's funny how all this came from that!!

So on to my "pain" ...My knee is acting crazy with every step that I take! I decided I was going to start running for a portion of my cardio; And I did. Thirty minutes on day one, twenty minutes on day two, and that was it. Done. No more. Finished. Negative. I'm guessing my weight is beyond my running capabilities at this point. So I've been limping around while connected to a heating pad and smelling like menthol. The bad thing for me at this moment is I AM going snowboarding Friday, damn it. Ha Ha Ha. At work we planned a day's skiing trip for Friday. I'm doing all I can to be healed by that time. It's crazy because it doesn't hurt when I do the stepper, it just hurts when I walk. I will let you guys know how leg day turns out tomorrow!

It's bedtime for me. I have to turn the heat down before I go to bed. I like it COLD when I sleep. Which reminds me, I want to go camping!! I'm going to talk someone into going camping with me! I don't care if it's in my back yard!

By the way, GO STEELERS!!!!

Goodnight!
XOXO
B

Jus Chillin...

Sitting here messing on the computer - I love music and just hanging out and listening. I found a group on You Tube that is pretty dope and has got some talent, or what I call talent anyway. So here is a video by them that I really like. It tells a story that probably only a few of my closest will understand. I could follow this video with Nelly Furtado's "I'm like a Bird" but anyway... Hope you enjoy. All my love. If that wasn't a cliche, I'm not sure what is...
Off to the gym..
Love
B