HI!

I just wanted to say HI!!! ...and wish everyone a GREAT weekend!!!
LOVE
B

Looking....

HEYLO....

Thought I would let you in on how I am looking right now. This is a picture after training legs today.....




Training is going great right now - lifts are great. Here are a few numbers that I have been training with lately...

Deadlifts - 315 for 5 reps
Squats - 275 for 6 reps

CONGRATS to NICOLE BALL for taking the 2008 NY PRO TITLE and possibly the 2008 EUROPA LW TITLE - From what I hear, it is between she and the awesome JENNIFER SEDIA who I last competed with at the 2006 Nationals. I also saw a few pictures of HEATHER ARMBRUST at 8 WEEKS OUT from the OLYMPIA ...and all I can say is HOLY S*** WOW!!! You go girl....... I also want to root on MELISSA DETTWILLER and MATT BURZACOTT at the 2008 NORTH AMERICANS in 2 weeks......

Well, everyone have a great night and I'll be in touch soon......

xo,
b

Wats goin oooonn......

How is everyone??

I'm doing good! Things here have been a little weird lately but I have such GREAT people in my life that would do anything in this world for me - and I am so greateful for that. I just want to say thank you to those people that are so important to me - You know who you are. I have been really big into church lately. I have went pretty regular my entire life until I began working - I was then working many weekends and was unable to attend ...But now I can go all the time. It really keeps you moving in the right direction in life - makes you also realize what is really important and what, in the big picture, is no big deal - I do believe that with God you can do anything - and that is where my heart is....




Been doing some shopping this week - I bought some MAC makeup and I absolutly LOVE it ... Everyone always talks about it but I never really thought I'd like it ...WELL I was wrong. Way wrong - LOL - Every girl should have some MAC makeup!! I've been losing a little weight lately so I bought some new clothes too....

Here are a few pictures where you can see my new hair.... I cut it like 5 times!!! Think I'm good now :) ...BUT now I have to let it grow :o( pfffttttt!!!!





Will keep in touch and will talk soon...

XOXOXO
B

Just me....

current material coming to the members section soon!!!

xoxo
b

Saying Hi...

One of my favorite pictures from this past Thanksgiving in L.A. .....



PS- I chopped all my hair off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
xoxoxo
b

JR USA weekend - CHARLESTON

HIYA!

I just wanted to share a few pictures with you from the Jr USAs. I am planning on the Nationals again this year in November ...

Check out the newest clip on my and Cindy's website OMG!!!! HILARIOUS!!! It's from Vegas - you will laugh your ass off! We are 2 of a kind fo sho..

Have a great week!

xoxo,
B

April 26th New Jersey...

I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived --Margaret Mitchell




XOXO
B

Benna hott minute...

What's up all?!

It's getting to be warm nice weather here and I'm lovn it. I like the cold at first of winter but I get bored with it REALLL quick. I'm ready to lay out at the pool and go around in shorts and tanks ...that is, once I get my butt in shape, lol.















Lately I have just been runnin around in circles it seems. I havn't been on here in forever, which I'm sure I dont need to remind you. I have neglected webcam (sorry :-( and especialy my email!! People get so mad at me because I am so slow to respond via email. I'm a busy girl. I do have a J-O-B and I am trying to stay in the training groove. So if I'm sluggish in that area, please forgive me!!

I started a new job!! I am now working in the SICU; surgical ICU. OMG... I ABSOLUTLY LOVE IT!!!! I stayed on a Med-Surg floor for almost 2 years. I never knew the life off that floor. Needless to say, I will always be an ICU nurse fromm here out. So much more my speed and style!! You have so much more autonomy that it's just rediculous. You ARE the patient advocate and pretty much make the calls for your patients health. It's awesome. Although I do miss my BONBON (secretary on my old floor).

So as a lot of you have let me know ...I have an HUG SPREAD in the April issue of MUSCULAR DEVELOPMENT!!! How exciting!! Starting on PAGE 274-281. CHECK IT OUT!!!! Awesome shoot with Per Bernell from November after NAtionals.



ALSO... I am in the April issue of IRONMAN. PAGE 275. A smaller insert with a competition picture from Nationals. AND ...LISA BOUSHARD is on PAGE 266. I had the privlidge of meeting Lisa at the Arnold this year! She is such a sweet and cool girl and is currently training for the 2008 JR USA's which I hope to be able to attend. She is looking BOMB at 9weeks out now!!!! I believe she will do very well!! Here is a picture of Lisa and her hubby, Joe. I had a blast with these 2 at the AC!!






This wasn't just a one time thing, haha, it was more like every meal!!! For me anyways, ie LIL MISS PIGGY!!

I am in the process is fencing in my yard for Deezy. She needs somewhere to run free when I'm out. But you wouldn't believe the prices. They are outrageuos!!!

That's all for now,
HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEK!!

XOXOXOXOXO
B

Good Times...

Taking things day by day here - Live and learn - I'll be the first to admit that I ALWAYS learn the hard way, LOL. It's my nature I guess. I don't come off as the type that lets others walk all over me - but sometimes I do - and I'm not doing it any more. I've had enough and I've learned. Like I said, you live and learn and true friends are very RARE these days!!

I have been working and just hanging out. I've got the itch to go back to school! I think I am applying to start back in the Spring - maybe - not sure if I want to go back to CRNA school or Nurse Practioner school ...such a hard decision. CRNA is #1 but requires much more before applying. I wouldn't be able to apply until the Spring of next year (2009) and then probably wouldn't get to start for 1-2 years later (2011 maybe) then I'd be in school for 2 years. Nurse Practioner school I could start in the Spring of this year (if accepted - 25 people per year accepted) and be finished in 2 years ...sooooooo dunno just yet ....so I;m just having fun right now until something sparks my interest ...Here is me and my friend Meg before going out the other night. It was so funny - we learned the Soulja Boy Dance, LOL ...freaking hilarious!!


The year is starting off good for me. I am going to be starting Boxing lessions (which I LOVE) - I was kickboxing a few years ago with a past world champion, Randy Smith. But went off to college and unfortunatly stopped :( But I miss it and have been wanting to get bk to it. When I went to LA in November I went to Randy Couture's Training Gym, that really made me want to get back into it. It's sooo fun and it's a hellova workout!

Here is my new BABY!!!! OMG I LOVE IT!!! CHECK IT OUT ...2007 CBR600RR - IT'S SICK!!


Alright guys...Gotta go to sleep

LOVE YA!!

B :-)

What a nice day!!

It's such a nice day here today; warm and just a little windy. I love it!! ...It will probably get really cold later today and tonight as it usualy does. I wish it would snow!! I worked New Year's Eve so there was no partying for me ...We toasted the new year with our sparkling cider, lol. Went out with the famly last night and had a few beers with dinner. That's always fun.

I have my first professional bodybuilding SPONSOR!!!!! YAY!!!! Dave Palumbo with his fairly new line of supplements and clothing has sponsored me! Seems so crazy. I never thought this day would come. I got my SPECIES warm up suit in the mail the other day by surprise ...I was so excited, lol. My first reaction was ...Man, I hope my ass fits in these pants, hahahha!! And it does so no worries :) I wore it around the house and then to get my hair done. I'm proud of that thing. My hair is still dark with red highlights. I really like it. It is soooo long. I like that too.

Here is the link to my profile on the SPECIES site...
www.speciesnutrition.com/athleteBrittMiller.asp


Training is going well. Back into things not 100% just yet, but it is coming. Preparing for 2008. Diet is starting to clean up and I'm starting to train very heavy. OMG ...I did legs hard and heavy for the first time on MONDAY ...Today is FRIDAY ...and I am still tip-toeing around. Still cant squat down, lol. Within all the pain there is a good feeling as well.

I am going to visit my friend Holly at the beach in a few weeks ...YAY!!! She's so crazy we always have a stupid fun time. Then I'm back in Oklahoma to train soon as well. OK guys, That is all for now. I hope everyone has a wonderful new year!!! Oh yea, and I about forgot my new years resolution ...To find the love of my life!!!! HAHAHAHHA, JUST PLAYING ...My New Years Resolution is to find something new, anything, and accomplish it with excellence. Don't know what it may be but I'm in that state of mind; Nursing, BB, relationships, religion, sports ...anything.

If anyone has questions or comments please email me from my website, www.brittmiller.com

I will leave you with this... I think sometimes we all feel this way...

THE PERFECT FRIEND
-- Shannen Wrass --

Today I found a friend
who knew everything I felt
she knew my weakness
and the problems I've been dealt.
She understood my wonders
and listened to my dreams,
she listened to how I felt about life and love
and knew what it all means.
Not once did she interrupt me
or tell me I was wrong
she understood what I was going through
and promised she'd stay long.
I reached out to this friend,
to show her that I care
to pull her close and let her know
how much I need her there.
I went to hold her hand
to pull her a bit nearer
and I realized this perfect friend I found
was nothing but a mirror.

LOVE YOU ALL...
B :)

What's up!!

Hello :)



I am back home now - All settled in my cozy little house. I was gone for a total of 4 weeks! I was in OKC for 2.5 wks training - then Dallas, TX for a half a week for my competition - then LA Cali for a week doing photo shoots. So after all the plane rides across the country I'm back in my hometown in NC.

What can I say ...I AM ECSTATIC!!!! I placed 2nd in the LightHeavyWeight class - coming in a 132LBS. 8LBS heavier than last year when I struggled to make Middleweight!! 8LBS!! I didn't realize that I had even put on any muscle this off season. I trained hard and ate ate ate but guess I just didn't see the progress until contest time. I believe there were 19 competitors in my class - Of which ALL looked amazing. The entire show this year was great! Such great competition.



Prejudging... all proceeded onto the stage. Quarter turns ...and off the stage we go. Then we all do our 40 second mandatory routines for the judges. All back onstage together. Call out the top 5 in numerical order to go to the center of the stage. YAY!! I was in the 1st call out - top 5. Along with Kristy Hawkins, Karen Choate, Elena Seiple, and Amy Neal. I was in the middle to begin with - between Elena and Kristy ...Then they moved Kristy to the middle ...Then they kicked me and Kristy off the stage, ahahaha, and they continued with the comparisons for the placings. So ...that told us all that Kristy and myself were the top 2 ...But who was 1st and who was 2nd????? We didn't know. It was such an honor just to be in the position that I was in at that moment. I was honestly speechless ...Butterflies all day. I relaxed for the rest of the day - preparing myself for whatever might come my way that night. Knowing already that I had achieved so much - no matter the outcome.



CONGRATULATIONS to Kristy Hawkins - She brought her best to the stage and received the best in return. What a success. She told me that she wants to petition for an invite to the Arnold Classic - so awesome. She will do great! She is such a sweet girl - very quiet. She is about to have her PhD which is even more amazing. I know how difficult is was competing when I was getting my Bachelors in nursing school ...I can imagine how intense her life must be preparing for a contest while pursuing her PhD. If you want it - You will get it. I believe that. Congratulations again to Kristy!! Onto the Pros!!!



This year has been amazing - With so many amazing people in my life. To start ...My Mom has been by my side through thick and thin since the very day I was born. Never has she turned her back on me ...never. She has been to every show I have competed in since I began at the age of 13 - 10 shows total, I believe. I love you Mom! My Brothers have been by my side - always there for me if I need them. My best friends are always encouraging me and are always there for me. Cindy came to Nationals last year and my friend Holly came to support me this year. Thank you Carrie Ledford and Sherry Smith for all your help and encouragment ...I love you guys! My trainer and awesome friend Howard has put up with me for 20 weeks straight!!!! Lol. I love him so much. I couldn't have asked for anyone better to share this journey with. I can't explain how awesome he is ...The guy sleeps with his phone! 3AM if I need anything, he's there, awaiting my call. But more than that, we developed a relationship that I will cherish forever. To succeed in BB you have to have someone (a trainer) #1 that knows what they are doing. But more importantly you have to be able to trust them - their every decision - every call - I have trust issues, lol - but I put all my faith and trust in hHh and look where I am now!! He always says that he just tells me what to do and that I'm the one that has to do the work, hahah. How deceivingly true that is. With hHh by my side, I am so excited to make the best gains of my entire career this off season - and bring my even sharper and more improved physique to the 2008 Nationals stage. Keep your eyes peeled ...you havn't seen the best Britt Miller yet :-)



I have been able to do some awesome photo shoots these past weeks. I got to shoot with the AMAZING David Paul for Dave Palumbo's SPECIES Products and Muscular Development - The wildest most amazing shoot of my entire life!! It was very artistic - I was able to be myself - be free and just have fun. I wish I could show you our work! But it's being held hostage until it appears in the magazine, ahahah. ...Also shot with the great photographer Per Bernell for Muscular Development too. At this shoot I was able to shoot with Evan Centopani and Timea Majorova. They were both so sweet and awesome to work with. Per is a great photographer!! I can't wait to see the products! They are also being held hostage, lol. Although I havn't even seen the pictures from this shoot yet!! I also shot with Mike from Physique-Art again this year in L.A. We shot in an awesome studio. I will post some pics when I get these back. I'm excited to see these too! I did a little work for my website while in Dallas Sunday afte the show. I was so drained and exausted that I really just relaxed for the most part. I LOVE getting my hair and make-up done. Nothing is better than getting up, showering, and just going to the set for your shoot, ahahah. You just sit there and the make up artist does your face and the stylist does your hair and coordinates your outfits, lol, it was soooo great! Hope Zarro did my make up for the SPECIES Ad shoot ...omg, such an amazing job - I looked like a cat!! She's such a sweet girl! The American Idol/Tela Tequila makeup artist did my face for the Per Bernell shoot.

Thank you Dave Palumbo and Steve Bleckman for steering me in this direction!!

Also I will be shooting for FLEX Magazines BODY SHOP Ad next week with Terry Goodlad ...I can't wait!! Then I can eat eat eat!!!!! haha.

Alright guys, I know I left out so much, or it feels like it anyways ...It was just an amazing journey to say the least. I am very pleased with everything :-)

ALL MY LOVE,
GOODNIGHT,
B.

Passed time...

Britt here...


Hey guys!!!! Not sure where to start here. It's been one hell of a ride these past weeks - or months I should say. There's been ups and downs, the good and the bad. Not always skippy, lol. Mmmm Skippy Peanut Butter, lol, sorry :-) But more good than bad I have to say. I've been extreamly fortunate to have had all the support that I've had this time around - dieting and training. I have a trainer this year. He has been here for me through thick and thin ...through all my crazy thinking. You wouldn't beleive how messed up my mind-vision connection is when it comes to answering a simple question ..."How do you look today?" I've come up with some pretty far-fetched answers, lol. Pretty much everything from the most simple to the most complicated have changed for me this year. Everything except my determination and dedication ;) ...Over the years - first starting out - and along the way as well - it's very hard. To stick to your diet, do your cardio, to NOT have those thoughts of wanting to quit, etc. Now it's like this is a part of me - a part of who I am. It makes me, ME. Yes ...I whine and complain but it's only to make me feel better ahhahaha. It's just good to not have to question yourself everyday about things. Just to be able to get up and do what you have to do without debating. You do what you gotta do to reach your dreams. It's an awesome feeling.

So Anyways... A lot has went on. I've been to Oklahoma a few times to train ...Amazing! New Jersey for a photo shoot. Cindy has been to my house to visit! We had a blast as we always do. I've meet some incredible people. My baby-girl Deezy has gotton HUGE!!!! She's just a baby and her paws are softball sized, lol. she's a mess. My neighborhood has said that I have to get rid of her chain-linked fence b/c they are not allowed. whatever hahaha. Don't know what I'm going to do b/c to fence in my entire back yard with an appropriate privacy fence will be close to $5000.00!!!!! I'd let her stay inside but she's so darn big and sheds black hair like crazy. She makes me laugh so hard. I had her pinned in the yard on a chain - attached to a stake in the ground to let her hang out a little while - while I was cleaning inside the other day. I came outside and she was gone!!! I called her and then heard something that sounded like reindeer bells and santas sley ...lol. She came running around the house dragging along the 20foot chain with the stake bouncing along on the end. I was dying. She's so funny. There is a little white kitten that comes around that she likes to hang out with and play with. It's soooo cute.

Work is stressful. I havn't been feeling well lately so I've missed some days at work. Being worn down is starting to take a toll on my body. I have the best boss at work. She is so awesome. So understanding and willing to work with you. I have wanted to change specialties in Nursing for about the past year but she is the only thing keeping me static right now. And she's so cute too ...she's pregnant. Pregnant people are so cute. I have 2 nephews and a little neice and they are all so beautiful. I love kids and can't wait to have some one day. There's just something about that mother-child connection that I find so appealing. Rikki and Mike (webmaster and his wife) have a new little girl. She's such a good baby! They've done a really great job with her - great parents.

So I have my suits for Nationals! They are beautiful - Thanks to Tamara of Bikini Guru! She does such a great job. Pretty plain this year but that is what I wanted. My body will speak louder than the suits anyways ;) Havn't got jewelry just yet but have an idea of what I want. Posing routine, custom made by Joey :), is all taken care of. Just a little more practicing and It'll be ready to show. Hair is RED now, lol. Always changing. Always will probably ahahah. I can't keep one thing for too long - I get bored with it and need something new or different. I got a new tatoo. It says Eternal Love. Which has underlying meaning to me. It's really means a lot to me. More than what lyes on the surface of the words. Little pieces from my life - growing to be who I am now. It's pretty cool.

Ok well that's a little update for now. Check back and I'll try to keep this darn thing updated ahahha. OH YEAH ...HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GIRLIE CINDY!!!!! On Wednesday, Halloween!!!! Cindy is turning 24. LOVE YOU BABE...MISS U!! And oh yea, I had a birthday about a month ago :) I'm 23 now, lol.

ALL MY LOVE,
B :-)

hey hey

hey guys,
Just a quick update, have a lot goign on lately. Last week i was in Oklahoma and right now Cin is here visiting with me. Lots of amazing things to tell yas. Cin and I are just get reday to do some shopping and spend the day togther as she leaves tomorrow, so i will update you with everything then!!!

Heres a quick pic from last yr after nationals taken by physique art.....


Look for me and Cin on herbicepscam.com tonight.....we'll be doing it TOGTHER tonight!!!!!

At you again soon,

Britt

CINDY PHILLIPS IFBB PRO

My girl Cindy personally invited into the IFBB! What an honor! I love you Cin and I couldn't be more proud of you - You deserve this and have an amazing future ahead! Here is your new IFBB Professional Bodybuilder guys ...





















On a smaller note, lol, my whole look changed over night - It's just hair - So lets hear it - cause I've heard EVERYTHING imagneable ...from good too bad :) So go ahead - I'm ready - criticize me ahahhaha...




Off to the gym...
Xoxoxooxoxo...
B :-)

Time for an update...

Another Beach Picture...

Just done eating and cleaning the kitchen. I'm sitting here at the computer and I can hear my washing machine all the way in here, lol, it's so darn loud. My little girl is out in her pin. She's getting so big and she is soooooo wild so I have been keeping her outside. I have to be careful when I go in her pin to change her water or feed her because she digs holes - they are everywhere and I've almost busted my butt a few times. I guess she thinks she can dig herself an underground tunnel ...who knows what she's thinking - she's a crazy pup - and I love her to death! I sprayed her down a few times today with cold water since it's been so hot outside - she loves it! Then she rolls in the dirt for the next 10 minutes and gets all muddy. I came home from the gym today and was planning to go to the pool for a little while - Once I got home and ate I decided that I'd just lay out back and tan for a bit. Glad I didn't go bc I stayed out there for about 45 minutes and couldn't stand it anymore so I had to come in. I got some good sun tho.

I've been dieting a little and doing some cardio. Cardio is sooo brutal, lol. I try to think positive thoughts about it - thinking it'll make it not so bad ...ya, it doesn't work that well. It just seems endless I guess - takes forever. Cardio is always better at the gym cause I can people watch. Here I just stare at the wall, lol. My trophies are right infront of me so I look at those alot - think about the different times I competed and things that happened along the way ...Believe it or not, looking at them does motivate me sometimes. Makes cardio seem worth something ...sometimes, ahaha.


















I gotta say Congratulations to Miss Cindy Phillips because she looks PHENOMONAL!!!!! The next soon to be Canadian PRO ...Middleweights are going to be blown away by her 5-foot diesel-stacked-ripped but yet beautiful feminine stature ...I keep saying amazing bc I can't think of any other word, lol, it's the only one that suits her ...She is just amazing ...I'm sure she will post an up-to-date pic before she leaves for Edmonton tomorrow morning ...and you'll see what I'm talking about ...just amazing. She's like 3 days out and as fuller than I have EVER been ONstage, lol, seriously. I don't know how tha girl does it but she manages to NEVER go flat. You take my carbs away for 1 day and I look like wet noodle, ahahhaha. ANyways - this is not about me, It's about Cin ...so go get em baby and show em all that you've worked for!!!! I miss ya! Me and Cin talked this morning on the phone - I was like whats upo, wacha doin ...she said she was doing her last cardio session for the rest of the year, hahah, i was laughing.

Okey Dokey ...Im getting tired - I think Im going to head to bed soon ...that's bad huh - it's only 730 haha :) Sleep is very important to me ... #1 on my to-do list, lol. I'll prob update yas tomorrow maybe with a pic ...I'm getting my hair done ...gonna get something done that none of you have ever seen ...hope ya like it ...hope I like it :)

Love You
xoxo
B :-)

Quick Pic...

Had dinner and a movie with the fam on Friday night...

Will write more on Monday ...For now I have to get some sleep..

CONGRATS JENNIFER SEDIA - NEW IFBB PRO AND SUCH A SWEET GIRL ...

Xoxoxox,
B :-)

Poem

Hi Guys!! Just wanted to share with you one of my favorite poems... I'm off to the gym to train legs early this morning ...See yas!!!! Web Cam prob tonight!!

Loves,
B :)

Hope you enjoy...

The Last Pedal
© By Carolann S. Wallace

Perfect as a rose pedal
Watch as it endures
The blooms fight for their life
As they are surrounded by knives
For what they know best
Is the blossom of their hearts
They live in the moment they open
Hopes to achieve, reside in their minds

Pedals come and pedals go
Stop to watch as they appear
Appreciate the colors and smells
Learn from them while they are here
For they will disappear
No more chances do they get
They cannot be forgiven
For they must open and if they don't
It is the end

Some will arise to the occasion
They are beautiful in every way
Every chance they get
To send sweet aroma in the air
To fill the days with colors so fair
But the life is short
Because they opened, they must fall
The fall to death
Conscious of the life they lived
Are they successful or
Do they suffer in agony
as the last pedal falls

Just me

What ups yaw...
just off webcam. i got my nose pierced a few weeks ago at the beach. ive wanted it done for a long time but never had the urge to do it. so i did it lol.didnt hurt or even get sore. not many can tell i even have it. course it was the first thing my mom saw ...she doesnt like it. i dont think she really cares too much for any of my tatoos or piercings but shes cool with them. shes a great mom.

so i have a new roomate now. its a little different living with someone after living alone for so long. im the biggest clean freak now that i have my own place. i walk around picking up tiny pieces of dirt and wiping everything down all the time ahaha. you might even call me a little ocd when it comes to keeping my house clean. never been like that until i bought a house of my own. its true that you respect things that you have to earn yourself- very true. sometimes i feel a little consistant with cleaning but its my house so i have the right to be picky bout it, right?




deezy is growing like a weed. shes prob 25-30 lbs now. i have to take her back to the vet soon for more shots. she gets on my last nerve sometimes. she doesnt listen very well and i end up beating her butt haha. i got her a dog lot to keep her outside now. shes tearing up too much stuff in my house. chewed on my bed!!!!!!! i was soooooooooo pissed ...sooooooo dissapointed that she did that. tried chewing on my blinds, peed in the couch, and chewed my molding in the laundry room. !!!!!!!!! again, i get so upset because i had to buy everything brand spanking new that is in my house. the only thing that is not new are my coffee/end tables that my brother gave me when he moved to his new house. everything else came straight from my pocket. so you can see why it bothers me :)

ive been in a really irritible mood lately. anything and everything sets me off it seems like hahaha. i try to keep my cool but the combo of everything is a little much lol. i started a diet about 2 weeks ago too so that might have a little to do with it too. but anyways ...work is going well. i have my one year evaluation coming up next week so i better get a raise, hahah. if not ill prob be pissy with them too hahah. i got my hair cut and colored this week. a littler darker in the bottom and a little light on the top ...it ok i guess. i want something different but i cant find anything i like- nothing drastic. so i just cut a few side bangs. its a little change.

well thats all for now its bed time for me. finally getting tired. my sleep schedule is all wacko as usual.

goodnight,
xoxoxox,
B :)

Fun in the sun :)

What's up guys...
I've been at the beach this past week- Took a buncha pics for yas - they'll be in the members section ...Here's a lil pic for ya all ...
Growing well!
Loves,
B :)

Mind boggled

Things have been sort of weird here lately- My thoughts are all over the place- With everything positive I have going for me in life, it just seems like there is something missing. I catch myself all the time in deep thought- usually starring into space. I think I'm just to a point in my life where I want something more- I mean, I always want more out of life- I'm never satisfied with anything I accomplish bc I know I can acheive more- nothing but a thing ...But ...Everything I've did in life has been for a reason- To know that I can make it own my own- to know that I can accomplish anything that I want to- That is why I built/bought a house ...bc I wanted to know for myself that I could take on that mountain and be ok ...But now that I have did all this, it's like ...now what ...I don't want to keep proving to myself that I can accomplish things by myself ...I've already figured that out- I already know that. I'm ready to move forward and make progress in other steps of life. I'm 22 ...ya that's young- what more could a 22 year old want, right? I have all the necessities of life and so so so so much more- Not that I don't deserve what I have bc I'll be the first to tell you that I have worked my ass off for everything I have in this life ...But there is still something missing ...I just feel a void ...I have made myself happy my entire life ...I'm ready to make someone else happy.

Just had to speak my mind for a few seconds- That's been riding on me for a week or two now... I'm heading to bed so I can get up in the morning...

Goodnight- Sweet Dreams ...And Thanks for listening,

Love,
B.