Its been an interesting weekend/week for me. I've been miserably sick. All the sudden got really sick Friday night with a bad case of the flu. I've been sick ever since. I missed my Saturday and Sunday CLinicals at hte hospital- which it was supposed to be my last weekend for the semester but now I have to finish this coming weekend- Which in turn means that I will not be at the NC States this weekend :(:(:(:( Sorry!!!! I had planned my work so that I could come home to see everyone and help out at the show- but now it's pretty much impossible :( I thought I was doing better Sunday afternoon, actually talked to my babygirl CinPhillips that night, but then I tried to eat something for the first time and got really sick again. Therefore I havn't been eating, just drinking stupid Gatorade (Uggghhhh :( just tons of sugar) but anyways ...Had to drag myself to school to take an exam Monday morning that I didn't get to study for any after Friday night. Came home went back to bed- got up this morning bc I had to go to clinical- ending up leaving early- came home went to bed- and now I can't sleep anymore aaaannnndddddd my stomach still hurts, bad :( Yes, I'm a whiney-butt but I give myself the right to be, lol, I've been thru hell these last 5 days. Oh yea, I had a flat tire the other day too and had to fix it in the cold, lol- just thought I'd add another little complaint :)
So I havn't been in the gym since Friday and have lost a little over 10 lbs bc I'm not eating. Sucks! really bad. Can't wait until I can get back in the gym and gain my weight back. I wont take long to gain it back but ya know it seems like it takes forever! And I worked so hard to get up to 170 too, even you all know that! Ima try to get back in the gym tomorrow but we'll see how I feel after I get outta clinical tomorrow. Not gonna go back until I feel 100% better- definatly don't wanna get sick again! On a better note ...During all this Bad something good did happen ...I met a hot guy aaaannndndd well, I'm kinda interested :)
As I said before, Me and Cindy talked on the phone the other night ...She's such an awesome girl and we're so much alike that it's just crazy. We don't just have the BB perspective in common but life in general ...life values, you know further down the road. Right now, life is great with BB, but many are asking where is the sport goiing ...that's really not even a factor with me ... I train and compete because it is what I love and that is one thing that will never change; I will always have a passion for BB. Doing well in competition, having a website, having fans like you all, being known for what you've accomplished at 22 years old, just everything ....It's just so great, I love it! But when I think about the future, there is so much more to me than BB. I will always train and keep in shape but the day will come when it's time to change gears. No one knows when exactly that will be but it'll be when I feel like I have accomlished what I have desired. I want to keep my life open to other things aside of BB ..you know, like all the wonderful things in life, things and feelings that can't be replaced ...things like marriage and kids. Just something I have been thinking about lately ...More than likely since I'm graduating and really getting out on my own ...But for now, until that time comes and those things happen, Nursing and BB are my passions ...Anyways, BIG CIN's muh girl, lol, I'm going to watch her compete in Canada at the Nationals in September if everything goes as planned! Love 'er!! If we shoot together, it'll be amazing, we'll both be dieted down :) I'll be about a month and a half out from the Nationals and she'll be all ripped up, lol, can't wait!
Anyways for you that keep asking about the calve exercises ..How about this, Since I have to do calves as soon as I get back in the gym, I'll do a kick-ass Calve workout and give you the low-down on exactly what I did afterwards ...Sound good? ;)
Alrighty guys, Ima get going and try to get some good sleep so maybe I can be all better tomorrow!
Be in touch soon...
Love Yas,
B
Leave ya with a pic when I was 11 weeks out from the USA's, 2005...
